Exploring the Deep

Passionately pursuing life, faith and adventure…

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Found this little gift waiting for me this morning at work. Yumm! Thank you secret gift-giver…you know me well!


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In the moment.

“When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he thought, ‘Surely the is in this place, and I was not aware of it.’” — Genesis 28:16

Oftentimes I find myself so focused on the next big thing – hoping, dreaming, thinking, planning – that it’s consuming. I’m constantly looking at the horizon for a glimpse of what is coming my way. But I’ve come to realize that I don’t want to be so focused on the next place and the next thing that I miss what’s happening in this moment. I don’t want to miss what God is teaching me right now.

My prayer is for growth, to learn, to hear Him and to be a better follower of Christ. But how much do I miss of what He’s doing right now because I’m looking to the future thinking, “I can’t wait until God does something really big in my life”? What if He’s doing something really big in my life right now and I’m missing it? What if I’m overlooking or not paying enough attention in this moment that in hindsight I realize He was doing something right then? Lord, I don’t want to miss you right now because I’m focused on the what’s to come.

What are you looking for on the horizon? Where do you see God working in your life right now? I’d love to hear your stories!

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A girl in limbo.

I feel like I’m caught in a limbo of sorts. I’m in that odd place where I know a major life change is on the way, but I’m just sitting on the couch waiting for it to arrive. I’m forced to sit on my hands and wait. I have no control of the situation – and even if I could rush or delay the inevitable I would never want that power.

I can’t prepare any more than I have; I can’t book flights; I can’t pass off a task list to colleagues. I have no control over the timing. All I can do is wait. But that’s the hardest part – carrying on with everything with uncertainty looming over me. It’s difficult to keep my mind focused on the present when my thoughts are racing toward what the future holds. When will the phone call come? When will I regain the sense of control I feel like I’ve lost?

When it arrives, then I can hit pause on “normal” life to release myself to the highs and lows of the situation. But what to do in the meantime? I’m ready for the change and not ready at the same time. It’s a hurry up and wait moment. Hurry up to begin processing the emotional impact, but wait for the actual moment to arrive. Prep myself for loss, but still extend love while I can.

How have you processed situations like this? What did you learn? Any advice for this girl in limbo?